Monday, January 24, 2011
What you will do?
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Feel pregnant
I’m on CD4 today yet i feel pregnant and my instinct says I'm 8 weeks pregnant now. I only wished that i should be in the list of those woman’s who still have their AF during the pregnancies. Well, i know… I’m gone insane! Cant help it anymore!
Friday, January 21, 2011
GOD has different plan…
Just back from RE’s clinic. My intention was to get the medicine’s stock for the weekend. But the doctor asked me to hold this cycle since he don't prefer us for the timely intercourse (you hear me right! its a He! Me who very particular in wanting lady doctor finally agreed for a male doctor. I am ready to do anything to be a mom). He want us to try IUI which according to him, IUI is the best for us.
The lab will be not ready till mid next month and he let me go home empty handed without any medicine. I’m feeling so down!
At home, i just receive another pregnancy announcement of one of DH’s cousin who just married 3 months ago.
I dont know what God actually trying to tell me…
Tears are the silent language of grief. ~Voltaire
It’s here!
Yeay coz finally AF arrived yesterday. But Boo coz just called RE and seems that i still wont able to do IUI for this cycle because the lab is not ready yet. I have a choice now, either to try it naturally like last time or wait for another cycle.
I'm pretty sure i cant commit much on my next cycle since I've been having quite a number of training where I'll be away from home. I cant be idle doing nothing for another 2 months. So, I'm going to take all the drug’s again with whatever side effect it will be and doing it naturally. Here comes my another cycle of regular visits to RE, injections and ultrasounds.
But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it’s better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you’re fighting for. — Paulo Coelho
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Peek-a-boo
I had my AF 1 week (CD 22) early last month and now its 4 days late and I’m already on CD 36. It always been this way... when I'm eagerly waiting for AF to show up, it wont come and when i don't want it, it will come right on time or even earlier.
I'm pretty sure i couldn't pregnant this cycle. So there is no need to do the pregnancy test.
I want the AF to come so that i can continue the treatment but there is not sign of AF coming anyway. Its playing peek-a-boo with me! I hate this!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Twins
Few days ago, i was already sleeping and DH comes and talking to me… he was telling me about what he watched at National Geography about there is one village where, almost everyone getting twins. Not only the native ppl but also those who moved down to that village, also getting twins within the first yr of their stay.
Scientist thought it must be the water or the foods that the villagers taking but there is no significant proof for this hypothesis.
Well, the village is in Kerala, India and the majority were Muslims and the village is now called as Twin Town!
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Twin town: The Indian village where there are 220 sets of twins has doctors baffled
By Daily Mail Reporter
Last updated at 4:31 PM on 15th July 2009
Baffled doctors are trying to unravel the mystery of an Indian village boasting more than 220 sets of twins born to just 2,000 families.
Experts who have visited the remote tropical village of Kodinhi, in Kerala, have been left scratching their heads over the phenomenon that has seen almost six times as many twins born than the global average.
In 2008 alone 15 pairs of twins were born in the village out of 300 healthy deliveries and this year is expected to top that number.
Twins walking down a street in the village of Kodinhi.The village of Kodinhi in the Malapuram district of the Southern state of Kerala allegedly has more than 220 pairs of twins
In the last five years alone up to 60 pairs of twins have been born - with the rate of twins increasing year-on-year.
Local doctor and twin enthusiast Dr Krishnan Sribiju has been studying the medical marvel of Kodinhi for the past two years.
Although 220 sets of twins have been officially registered in the village Dr Sribiju believes the real number to be far higher.
'In my medical opinion there are around 300 to 350 twins within the village boundaries of Kodinhi,' he said.
'What is fascinating is the increasing numbers of twins with each passing year, so much so that I feel in the past ten years the number of twins in Kodinhi has doubled.'
Top twins town: Baseera & Bashila Basheer. (L-R Middle row) Reshna & Rafna Kareem, Suhaila & Sahala. (L-R Front row) Reshna & Rafna Kareem, Husain & Hasan Sulaiman
According to villagers, the twin phenomenon only started occurring three generations ago. Dr Sribiju can barely contain his excitement discussing the possible scientific implications of the village.
'To the best of my knowledge this medical marvel began somewhere between 60 to 70 years ago.
'Without access to detailed biochemical analysis equipment I cannot say for certain what the reason for the twinning is, but I feel that it is something to do with what the villagers eat and drink.
'If that is the case then maybe whatever is causing this exceptional level of twinning can be bottled and provide help for infertile couples.' Categorising the twin phenomenon as a naturally occurring anomaly, Dr Sribiju has ruled out genetic factors as the cause due to the localised nature of the village.
He also dismisses any suggestion that the unusual level of twins could be caused by an unknown pollutant pointing to the high number of healthy twins born without any deformities.
'There are lots of reasons for twins, but let me explain the underlying uniqueness of Kodinhi,' said Dr Sribiju, 40.
Paired up: 78 pairs of twins(156) out of a total of 178 people (22 parents holding their children) in this group photograph taken at the Goverment upper primary school
'The number of twins per thousand here is around 45 per 1,000 births.
'Indian, and by that I mean Asian, people on the sub-continent have the lowest acknowledged incidences of twinning in the world at around four per thousand.
'In addition, there is no IVF treatment here because of the prohibitive cost. Global rates of twins being born, especially in the western world, have increased because of artificial insemination.
'Also, twins are born usually to older, more mature women. In Kodinhi that is not the case because marriage happens much younger here at around 18-20 years old and families begin very soon after.
'Another factor that bucks the trend is that twins occur in women who are generally over 5ft 3in in height. The height of women in Kodinhi is around 5ft on average.'
The residents of Kodinhi, which is in the lush state of Kerala in the south of India, have even taken to calling their home 'twin town' and have gone as far as to set up the Twins and Kin Association (TAKA).
Amazing: Shahala & Shahana Ashraf
'TAKA has been set up to register and provide support for the twins of Kodinhi and their families,' said Puallani Bhaskaran, 50, the association's president and the proud father of twin boys.
'Understandably for such a significant minority in the community we feel that it is only sensible to club together to make sure that there is a focal point for the twins of Kodinhi to come to.
'Twins are financially a strain and also they are medically complicated for mothers to bear.
'TAKA can educate and support the villagers because here we have so many more twins than elsewhere.'
Counting more than 220 pairs of twins ranging from 65 years to one month as registered members - with another 30 applications pending - TAKA's total membership exceeds 600 when parents are included.
'I began planning for this association in July 2008 and formalised it in December of last year,' said Mr Bhaskaran.
'The twins of Kodinhi should be united so that they can find out why they are here.' However, for the twins of Kodinhi, life is lived with double takes and stares which eventually become common place.
'When I was at primary school I attended with around 30-40 other twins,' said Anu Bhaskaran, 16, who is the son of TAKA's president.
'It feels special to be part of something so unique, but the most satisfying thing about being a twin is tricking your friends and teachers,' said his brother Abhi.
With the majority of twins in Kodinhi being of the identical kind and the fact that a large percentage are under the age of twenty, the potential for mischief is enormous.
'We always find the teachers mix us up,' said five-year-old Shahala, who attends the local primary school in Kodinhi.
'Sometimes when we are feeling naughty we try and swap classes to confuse people,' said sister Shahana.
Citing the immense scientific implications should Kodinhi's secret be discovered, Dr Sribiju is currently trying to assemble the research support he needs to delve deeper into the twin town of Kodinhi.
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Now im thinking to shift there….! Anyone wants to join me?
Friday, January 14, 2011
Huh!
My head spinning when i read through a journey of another infertile soul who gone through 4 IUI’s and 9 IVF’s. I cant continue to read her story… im stunned! I wonder how strong she is and i dont even able to imagine myself in her shoes and im not sure whether will i be continue treatment to that extend.